grief

 
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who am i now?
who am i now?

The future is wide open, agape, oppressive with possibility

“are you okay”
“are you okay”

I grasp for it nonetheless, but it’s too far gone.

rehearsing my mother’s death
rehearsing my mother’s death

I have been rehearsing my mothers death since I was a child.

the empty tub
the empty tub

On the other side of that is uncertainty, space newly emptied and ready to be filled.

snowed in on my mother’s birthday
snowed in on my mother’s birthday

Healing as if it’s a linear process / broken / healing / healed

guide to supporting grievers
guide to supporting grievers

Part of what makes grief so hard is that we don’t have a cultural framework for it.

being loved by someone I loved
being loved by someone I loved

It’s been a year since one of my best friends of the last decade left this world.

2020
2020

2020 started and ended with big losses - my friend T-boy and then my mom.

raw and rough and real
raw and rough and real

Grief, like death, is non consensual.

grief finale, vol. 1
grief finale, vol. 1

In six months I have forgotten grief as if it were a country I returned home from.

then there is light
then there is light

To come back to balance, to focusing on what is good, is a choice that is at times difficult, but ultimately inevitable as well.

have you thought of suicide?
have you thought of suicide?

Haven’t we all? No? Maybe in a dark moment.

common side effects of grief
common side effects of grief

Grief is weird.

don’t be afraid
don’t be afraid

There is no elegant exit, this is only the beginning.

notes from the week of my friend’s death by suicide
notes from the week of my friend’s death by suicide

There is no tidy ending.